I am planning for my 2nd flight.
The first flight was in November 2017 from Beirut to Istanbul which took 1h45min. I asked this question on this site, explaining my Phobia to professionals on the site.
The flight was good enough, but the crew was rude, the safety guidance was in Turkish though 90% of passengers were English and French speaking Lebanese. I couldn't understand anything, so I was concentrating on their hand movements to understand what they are saying and trying to catch a few things. The pilots were speaking to us several time during the flight in Turkish and even the hostess weren't reacting to what the captain is saying. So it was a little bit confusing.
I was calmed down, maybe because of the Xanax 2.5 mg that I already took before take-off.
Now I am preparing for my next flight next week to Paris on another Airliner. I don't know if I am allowed to mention the name of the airlines, but it have a really great reputation. I was searching in this wikipedia link on crashes related to the airline and the last one was in 1976 due to a terrorist attack. More info in this link.
I know the following may not be logical for most of you:
My problem now is that the huge clean sheet of the airline company makes me more scared to fly with them. If an airline didn't have any crash since 40 years, is it good to fly with ? Does that add pressure on companies responsible and pilots and even flight engineers which may make mistakes concluding to crashes or problems ? The flight time is 4h40min, and that adds more pressure on me and considering 90% canceling my flight.